Was it hell or paradise?

You have to resign some of your idealisms to make some work.
(Something I suddenly realized that I wanted him to learn)

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Now I'm completely convinced that I don't like him and what's worst is because of that I'm inclined to hate him. I know its making me a bad and unfair person.

Emotions overshadow our capability of right judgment. I must have been blinded by my feelings for him before. Maybe what I saw is not the real him but the person that I wanted, that I needed.

- "I have annihilated the possibilities" -

Its hard when you are with someone you don't like but it is harder when you know you don't have the option to drive him away, You are caged by the convictions you made before

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All of you are terribly confusing. I can't decipher the actions, words and even text messages go give.
I feel like I'm being toyed by your species.
If you can't make it clear the very least you can do is stop right now while I can still endure (or understand) all of this. Please.